Isolation

Traveler's have their down days too and today was my first. I did not care to partake in any kind of conversation because I didn't want to deal with the language barrier that I have to get through everyday. I kept my head phones on all day. I slept at random odd times throughout the day. Didn't step outside until 11pm which was to go on a walk with my concerned friend Shigeaki. I chose to sit in different rooms than everyone else. What is wrong with me!? Well the truth is, I knew I would have times of isolation where I felt out of my element and today was just one of those days. My natural instinct is to want to adapt to my environment as best as I can. I am ready to buy the proper clothing (both fashion related/season related), learn the language fluently, keep the friends I've made/establish more relationships, and make a life for myself here, I am in love with Japan...but what's the point!? I leave in less than 2 weeks and this will all seem like just a dream. It is a shame but I guess that is down part. I fall in love with a place and its people then I'm heart broken probably to never see most of them again...dancing with the devil in a way. To think that I will have to feel that so many times this year kills me! That is it, I will keep this post short because I still know how fortunate I am to have this opportunity. Tomorrow will be a better day.